I am super weird about Halloween. I mean I am weird about most holidays but Halloween is the more peculiar oddity.
I have always loved Halloween. Why? Dress-up of course! I mean candy was great as a kid but I didn't really get to play dress-up outside of on Halloween. Of course, as an adult, candy is still great but now it hurts my teeth when I indulge too much. Candy corn I love you but teeth don't. Sadness. However, a bag of gummy bears I will devour and have a sweet sugar coma after. Sugar.....
I stopped going out on Halloween many years ago. I was never a fan of going to crowded bars with a high likelihood of having my (then) store-bought costume ruined. The last time I hit up a bar on Halloween I was attacked. That is a story I think I have talked about before but I have no intention of rehashing now. It was attempted assault and no I was not hurt in the end. This girl has reflexes.
Since then, I don't really go out to crowded bars and when I do I am normally gone by midnight. I generally have a two beer rule. If I am going to a bar to see a friends show (I haven't in a few years) I only drink beer and only two maximum. I also don't allow other people to drive me. This way I don't get trashed and I don't have to feel trapped (because I can leave) or anxious that my driver is drinking.
I have tried to go out to Halloween parties since that one night, but anxiety gets the best of me. However, I DO want to make it to my friends annual parties in NJ and PA. I truly do. This year they fell on the same night. No fair.
This year I am also feeling like a stick in the mud. So there is that also.
Costumes on Halloween pose a curious confusion. I will not wear a cosplay out on Halloween (I never have). I spend so much time making them that I would be very upset if they got ruined. At the same time, I can't fathom buying a store-bought costume. There is NOTHING wrong with buying store-bought costumes, but because I sew I can't get around spending money on something I could make of better quality and more accurate for less money. Seriously, those store bought costumes are overpriced for what they are. So if I were to go out on Halloween I would be confronted with that conundrum.
Yesterday, while at work, I was asked a few times why I didn't dress up. To be honest it's because of harassment. I used to wear cute head-wear for work. I still have my giraffe headband. In recent years, I have had an issue with my work harasser the "smile guy" (I wrote about it). The last time I wore anything to work I was in a red shirt, black pants, and I had clip on devil horns. You can imagine how this guy had a field day bothering me all day long until I finally just took them off. As it is now I can't wear my boots to work with out this guy trailing me with cat calls and comments. The sad thing is most women take it as a compliment or put up with it and for the rest he is well liked. I have tried to tell him to knock it off and have gotten very nasty comments back so that isn't working. I am keeping my fingers crossed for the day he changes jobs or retires. It's possible. Then again I might find something somewhere else also. You never know.
It's funny to me that I would be more likely to be harassed in costume at my job than at a convention. It's sad but its reality. I mean it would be totally awesome to wear Dorothy to work or Megara (more conservative costumes). Most of the people at my job know I costume and I am pretty sure they would get a kick out of seeing one in person for a change. Maybe one day in the future.
I highly anticipate the day that I will be able to answer the door for trick or treaters (in cosplay of course). I would love to go out trick or treating with my friends and their kids. That's what I can't wait for and every year I squee at all the kid costume pictures from my friends.
Plus it's a Pagan holiday and Pagans are cool.