Time doesn't always fly when you are having fun, it also flies when you are horribly distracted.
I have come to realize a few things recently. One is that I can't just have a side hobby. It consumes my world unless I put very real limits on what I do. The second is that I have not been doing a good job of taking care of myself, personal affairs, or home in the last few years.
I took a day off of work because I had a doctors appointment on Wednesday which is now leading to a surgery consultation this coming week. It's completely my choice. This is not a surgery I have to have, but it is one that will lead to more general comfort. I am not willing to say what the surgery is for publicly yet.
In my migraine research, I learned that tooth problems can aid in the cause of migraines. It dawned on me that I could not remember the last time I had a cleaning. I used to go every six months on the dot. I had a cleaning and then a root canal in 2010. I had not returned afterward. I have no fear of the dentist. I love having healthy teeth, but the realization that I forgot about regular cleanings for 5 years is a pretty huge red flag for me. So while I had Wednesday off, I scheduled a dentist appointment.
I actually got a lot of good news from my hygienist. But I can talk about that another time. The end result of part one of my dentist visit is that my teeth have gotten healthier since I was last their. I am going to go on a limb and say diet has a lot to do with that.
It's been a big doctors week. I also went to my regular doctor today. Lots of different things.
Last weekend, I almost started a house fire by turning the wrong burner on and not paying attention. I have burner covers on my stove top. So I melted a burner cover and very suddenly realized this is the first time I have been in an apartment without a fire extinguisher. I did purchase one afterwards. I made sure it was a metal extinguisher so in the case that I do need to use it, it can be recharged. It also said rechargeable on the packaging.
I am also not keeping up with a tidy home as I would like to be and I am unhappy with how I have been over the years slowly decreasing my interest in making myself presentable. I am overworked, overwhelmed, and distracted in so many ways. To top it off, my Granny is not exactly sick, but winding down. I need to spend more time with her.
Because of all this I am very much considering taking a year or two off from costuming. I also had some very unpleasant experiences this year within the local community that have made me feel a lot less welcome costuming.
I need to take time away to recharge, reboot, and reestablish healthy habits that I have slowly lost. Some hobbies are easy to set aside and do in bits and pieces. Costuming is often all consuming and while I try very hard to prevent that from happening it still does. I think my original plans this year were for two to three costumes. As of now I will be finishing up 2015 with seven instead. Every year, I say I will sew in the winter and I will just wear costumes for the summer. It never happens like that and I can't keep pretending.
I have this funny feeling that with taking a break, coming back I may dive deeper into Disney cosplay. Currently, that's where my comfort is. I would love to do a Peasant Belle and maid Cinderella. It's a thought for the future.
Oh and bonus, if I am not sewing and stressing about cosplays all the time, I can spend more time blogging. Make no mistake I am not breaking from the blogs or conventions, just costuming.