Things are looking up. I still do not feel I have purpose but even without that I am better regardless. My retail job is helping a lot. Getting out and helping customers is pretty effective for me.
More so, I am finally moving. No more cricket infested apartment. I am really excited about my new apartment. I am more excited that I am not struggling to make the double 1st months rent.
It's a small studio, above ground, and the landlords are the sweetest. It's not really the amount of space I am looking for but I really liked the landlords. The area is nice and I know tons of people around. The hard part is getting someone to help me move on a THURSDAY. Thursday is the 1st and I want to be out of here as quick as I can. I fully intend to rent a truck and be out with one trip.
I don't have much furniture but a decent amount of boxes. I get to paint the new place. I intend to do the main area pale blue and the bathroom lavender. Currently the main room is an orange-yellow and the bathroom is pink. I love yellow but not on my walls and for some reason every apartment has yellow walls. I also like pink but it's a small bathroom and the pink is too much. It also will not match my bathroom stuff. I love painting too!
I very much feel like I have taken the first steps towards finding joy again.